In search of knowledge (new here btw, say hello)

[iAmTheGunman]

Hello everyone.

I'm a 19-year-old guy who stumbled across this site while trying to find information and knowledge on only anal sex.

I don't have any experience on any sexual activity except self-masturbation (I'm a plain virgin).

I've never had a partner before and lost hope of getting one, I gave up.

I feel ashamed I discovered anal sex through porn, as I'm always depicted as the "intelligent", the "serious", the "innocent" in my family, but the moment I saw it I felt mesmerized with those images.

Coping with a mild porn and masturbation abstinence, I entered the site because I read that it forbids images, so it will help me avoid triggering those images while I educate myself and learn more about anal sexuality and sexuality in general (kind of as if it was a hobby), so if you have any good resources to dive into it on a more "serious (?)" way, I'm interested in it.

I'm looking for people that shares my ideas on the beauty of anal sex, beyond just the physical feeling, almost as an art; and for people that just likes the idea of anal sex as if it was just another way of sex. I just want to feel that I'm not crazy, wimp, weak and anything in between just because I like the idea of anal sex.

About me: I like learning about stuff (although I tend to drop things quickly). I like heavy metal. You can send me messages from here and to my Discord whenever you want, as long as it does not contain any image of a woman completely or partially naked or engaging in any sexual activity.

Have a nice day.